A Strange Discomfort
A thousand feelings now run through the soul of mine
as the love that you lost & the friendship that it cost
As the most precious thing of mine, Yes i couldn't Give you my time,
The pain of loosing the person who once cared more than anyone,
And the suffering of being unable to help them,
The fear of being lost in Grave sadness and frustration,
The eyes that see the troubles, situations that people go through,
The time wasted in unnecessary thoughts,
The strange Idea of destruction, anger upon myself,
And the feeling of Hatred that beholds,
The willingness to either Erase myself or to be ale to
say that all of this was nothing but a big tiring dream,
The heart that once held Courage, Bravery,
Now cages nothing but a will to hurt,
But then, there's No one else to Blame,
I am the one responsible for the situations I created,
For the choices of Addiction that I made,
For the precious Time & energy that I wasted,
Now is the time where I stand On the brink of Destruction,
about to erase my previous self, As I couldn't be there,
I couldn't be there for you or anyone else, Even then I say:
Conditions Never allowed me to. But then That's only on the surface,
Deep In my heart, I know That I could have fought,
I could have fought for what i wanted,
That I could have clearly followed my heart & make time for you & everyone else that I care about,
But instead, I chose to engage myself in activities that would keep my mind distracted, Diverted.
And now here I am feeling like a Robot,
For always I have followed Orders, ALways neglected what was most Important to me, and accepted what was conveyed.
I never followed my own instincts, Kept on depending on people, But now NO MORE,
No ore sorrow, No more pain. What I'll follow is my own Path,
And I will choose What It'll be,
This time, I won't Loose myself on you,
I won't depend on, cling onto, force others to choose for me,
I will create my own path even if it hurts people,
I will follow my heart.Society was a major factor
In my decision making, accepting what the world wanted, I killed my own happiness.
But No More Sorrow, No More Suffering, For I'll begin the Making,
The making of a new Independent self, free from Helplessness, I'll create a new ME,
With whom, I'll never feel alone,
My ONLY best friend, counsellor,adviser,helper,care taker, motivator,
Will be ME.
From this day onwards, I'll leave my former self that thought from both the perspectives:
right and wrong, And hence could never make the right decision.
I'll leave my former self, that carries a thousand emotions,
Of guilt, hatred, love, anger, selfishness, helplessness, lonliness, disappointment and the list goes on...
The time that I lost, The words that it cost, and in future, I'll be glad it's GONE.....
As these things can never return, neither can I cry fr them.
There are eyes on you, eyes on me, we're doing this Right. For the things that we felt, saw & experienced, No one knows about them
So let's just focus on the main thing & let all others fade away.
As when the storm comes, with the lightning And the strongest wind , The silent waters along with the blue sky fades away, And you then just think of survival.
These lines i once loved " I Like The Sound Of The Broken Pieces" but every time i sung them,
Things really got Broken, First it was my vehicle,
Now it's my own self, But I'll rebuild it, more like Replace it, As I don't want to HURT anymore.
It's True & I thought that As I know it, it won't happen with me, but
"You Don't Know what You've Got, Until it's GONE"
as the love that you lost & the friendship that it cost
As the most precious thing of mine, Yes i couldn't Give you my time,
The pain of loosing the person who once cared more than anyone,
And the suffering of being unable to help them,
The fear of being lost in Grave sadness and frustration,
The eyes that see the troubles, situations that people go through,
The time wasted in unnecessary thoughts,
The strange Idea of destruction, anger upon myself,
And the feeling of Hatred that beholds,
The willingness to either Erase myself or to be ale to
say that all of this was nothing but a big tiring dream,
The heart that once held Courage, Bravery,
Now cages nothing but a will to hurt,
But then, there's No one else to Blame,
I am the one responsible for the situations I created,
For the choices of Addiction that I made,
For the precious Time & energy that I wasted,
Now is the time where I stand On the brink of Destruction,
about to erase my previous self, As I couldn't be there,
I couldn't be there for you or anyone else, Even then I say:
Conditions Never allowed me to. But then That's only on the surface,
Deep In my heart, I know That I could have fought,
I could have fought for what i wanted,
That I could have clearly followed my heart & make time for you & everyone else that I care about,
But instead, I chose to engage myself in activities that would keep my mind distracted, Diverted.
And now here I am feeling like a Robot,
For always I have followed Orders, ALways neglected what was most Important to me, and accepted what was conveyed.
I never followed my own instincts, Kept on depending on people, But now NO MORE,
No ore sorrow, No more pain. What I'll follow is my own Path,
And I will choose What It'll be,
This time, I won't Loose myself on you,
I won't depend on, cling onto, force others to choose for me,
I will create my own path even if it hurts people,
I will follow my heart.Society was a major factor
In my decision making, accepting what the world wanted, I killed my own happiness.
But No More Sorrow, No More Suffering, For I'll begin the Making,
The making of a new Independent self, free from Helplessness, I'll create a new ME,
With whom, I'll never feel alone,
My ONLY best friend, counsellor,adviser,helper,care taker, motivator,
Will be ME.
From this day onwards, I'll leave my former self that thought from both the perspectives:
right and wrong, And hence could never make the right decision.
I'll leave my former self, that carries a thousand emotions,
Of guilt, hatred, love, anger, selfishness, helplessness, lonliness, disappointment and the list goes on...
The time that I lost, The words that it cost, and in future, I'll be glad it's GONE.....
As these things can never return, neither can I cry fr them.
There are eyes on you, eyes on me, we're doing this Right. For the things that we felt, saw & experienced, No one knows about them
So let's just focus on the main thing & let all others fade away.
As when the storm comes, with the lightning And the strongest wind , The silent waters along with the blue sky fades away, And you then just think of survival.
These lines i once loved " I Like The Sound Of The Broken Pieces" but every time i sung them,
Things really got Broken, First it was my vehicle,
Now it's my own self, But I'll rebuild it, more like Replace it, As I don't want to HURT anymore.
It's True & I thought that As I know it, it won't happen with me, but
"You Don't Know what You've Got, Until it's GONE"
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