why doesn't anybody try to feel what i feel before blaming me ?

I've been through the strangest things anyone can be in. Especially no one here in my region can ever imagine of doing such things. but anyway..........
The thing is so many people Block me/ hate me/ Stay away from me Even before knowing me.
People tend to show that they know me better than I do. how can that be possible ?
But then.... There are also people that Try their level best to understand me,
They know that life can be very hard, So they appreciate me and encourage me,
I thank those people from the bottom of my heart for being my inspiration,
They proved to me That "Charity begins at Home" and "Be the change you want to see in the world"
The point is that when I'm about to breakdown there is nobody to catch me........
No one knows why and when was I hurt.
People think that I am just another Stubborn Person Trying to get attention... but it's not like that
I do want people to notice me, But I just don't do everything to catch others' attention.
In fact, everything I write or have written was meant for Myself alone.
I write about things that happened to me, not to impress anyone.
I just want to know how I feel
And how I should have Responded to that situation.
That's precisely why I write.
And the words of this song always are in my head So Loud
"SWEET WORDS MAKE AN APPEALING,..... BUT THEY ONLY CERTAIN MASK THE SMELL OF WHAT YOU BURY IN"
True Sweet words are nice, but they aren't just for show,
Someone somewhere really means those things,
Somebody Does care, someone really appreciates us !
That's one thing to be proud of !
But there are things I have done which ................
Took away a lot of my close Friends from me.....
I've Hurt, very Badly Hurt Everyone who has ever been close to me.
That's how i always end up with people. Good people.
But However, if that person is able to forgive me,
Then we end up being very good Friends, but if not ,
Then we don't talk............We don't ever talk again.
Because I don't want t remind them of the pain I've Inflicted on them.
I don't want them to remember all that suffering.
I never Wanted to hurt anyone but ...
But there are situations where knowingly or unknowingly
I Have been a Pain to people.
But then again, I don't know who wrote this on my desk, but It said
"Thank You Sumiran, You're My Angel I Love You"
So I don't know but I am a good person in someone's eyes.
And there are people Who Love me with all their Hearts. I Love them Too !!
But then........ Nobody ever tries to feel me, No one knows What I am going through,
And the Fact is that even if I tell them they would never Understand me like I do.  

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